Me, my blog and you

When I first started blogging it was just a way for me to sort through my thoughts. With time my blog fused all of my randomness into a public display of emotions. I am an open person and my feelings are what makes me ME.

I try to write in a way that makes people think, with a theme, which is often common throughout my posts, after all the biggest word in my tag cloud is Love. I actually think it's a great way to see who you are and what your writing really means. Who would have thought that a web 2.0 technology, widget, or whatever you want to call it can make it so clear what the blogger is so desperately trying to convey to others. Someone asked me recently; "Why do people blog?". I tried to explain the theory about blogging but really broke it down to him about my personal reasons for showcasing my most private self. I do it to understand myself and write in hope that one of my readers is going through something similar but doesn't have enough courage to reach out. Maybe my posts give somebody answers and balance.

According to Google analytics, my blog is read worldwide. What drives people to read my words? It can either be a form of voyeurism or they just see a piece of themselves in my words, which are essentially reflections of me.

Please keep reading and commenting. Your words let my thoughts turn into words which then can live and flourish.

New Page in My Book

I am full of mixed emotions. It's very new for me to go through so many ups and downs back to back.

It all started in June. Someone came into my life, a ghost from the past with a hope for the future. So many new feelings stirred up inside of me, good and bad all mixed in one funnel cloud. At times I am filled with excitement and hope and with all that ecstasy comes fear. Mostly it's the fear of the unknown, fear of letting go of something stable even though it's the cause of my unhappiness. I haven't had hope for a very long time. Before June my life was very monotone, hate to admit it but I found certain comfort in that. When someone asked me what my plans were, I always had a solid answer, my life was very predictable. Nothing has physically changed yet but emotionally I am on a whole different level.

I am taking it a day at a time, doing my best to keep the negative feelings away, feelings such as boredom and hopelessness with occasional pings of jealousy. I want to be happy and I feel like I have a chance, it's a very slim chance but that's all I got and it is a whole lot more than what I had in my old predictable life. I am on a new page and I am gonna make the best of it if it kills me.