So tomorrow is my 30th birthday which at first drastically depressed me. Normally I am not the kind of woman to get embarrassed by numbers; age, weight, height - it is what it is, who cares. This time around the age thing got me down just a little. I will no longer be in my 20s, I will now officially be a grown woman. Of course I have been a woman for a long time since that title is not really age but maturity based. One can be a total immature idiot at 30 and still act like a little girl, it is however more logical to refer to a younger girl in her 20s as a woman than a woman in her 30s as a girl.
I asked myself a question: what will the 30s bring?, which got me thinking as to what the 20s dropped off in my life. Actually that brought a smile to my lips. I accomplished a whole lot during the last decade.
So here it is, the accomplishments of the 20s era: when I was...
...20 I moved to San Francisco, started college, got pregnant.
...21 I had a baby, my wonderful little boy named AJ. I never stayed home after birth, kept going to school. I also became a U.S. citizen.
...22 I decided on my major and started going to school full time. 9/11 happened that year.
...23 I kept working my ass off at school.
...24 I won 3 awards for my design work. I graduated with a BFA in Computer Arts/New Media. I started my own business.
...25 I got my first REAL job where I still work!
...26 I advanced from being a web designer to department manager within first 2 months.
...27 I officially got promoted to Web Development Manager.
...28 I became involved deeply in the internet and it's webs. I fell in love. I embraced my Russian roots. I reunited with my childhood friends. I went back to Moscow for the first time in 10 years.
...29 I nursed my bleeding heart back to numbness just to realize that a few words from the one who broke it make it bleed all over again. I consolidated my credit cards and started to live on a strict budget. I got myself mentally ready for the 30s...did I?
If my 30s can even come close to matching my conquests of the 20s it will be fantastic. Here are some goals I have for the next 10 years:
- Get out of debt!
- Move to a home I would love to invite friends over to.
- Refurnish and decorate my home.
- Become a Creative Director!
- Have an office with a door.
- See my son graduate High School and go to college - OMG sob sob!!!
- Find inner peace even if it doesn't include a man in my life.
- Go on at least 1 vacation abroad every year (once I pay off my debt of course)
- Have at least one more child, preferably 2.
- Get married - not sure if this will happen
3 comments:
Yay! Lucky you are, I'm just entering my 20ies and feel myself very, very bold. There's so much to do next, do NOT feel blue or depressed, you're a happy mom and have a nice job you really love. Even in your 30ies you're pretty young woman.
How can you define the past decade? Was it too fast to realize? I guess so.
Anyway, cheer up there and remember to enjoy every moment in your life, it's here today, gone tomorrow. As usual, make milestones and achieve them, there's no time to hesitate!
Thank you very much for your comment. Your English is great;).
You asked how I feel about this last decade: well as you can see I feel acomplished and underachieved at the same time. I'm at a good point but there is so much to improve upon.
I think back to 1998 when I first turned 20 and recall myself being a stupid little girl. I made SO many mistakes that all could have taken my life into a very tragic direction but wit the love and support of friends and family, the love and joy I get from being a mother and wisdom gained through experience I made it this far.
Now I just have to keep moving forward and crossing off things on that list of goals.
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