Why is it that once you stop caring about something or someone, an event occurs to bring it all back? You just managed to let go of your hurt feelings and BOOM you are forced to relive the pain all over again. It might have taken you a long time to move on or maybe you just made the decision and finally stuck to it, and now everything you were so sure of is uncertain and right in front of you to be dealt with again.
It's a cruel twist of faith. You are given a challenge, it feels like the little devil on your shoulder is asking "are you really sure you don't want to give it another shot?" and the angel on the other side is rebutting "you did it once, if it didn't work the first time it won't this time, why get yourself hurt again".
You are forced into the position where you have to decide between wrong and right, but who knows which one is which. Is the angel really the good guy or is he the one who is just holding you back from taking a chance that can change your life for the better? Is taking a chance really that bad? And what about the devil, he is so determined to push you into something that you know feels so good but can end so bad?
So what do you do? You can hit the brick wall enough times in hope that it falls down eventually or you can just make your knuckles bleed.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Breaking a Wall or Bloddy Knuckles?
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I know what you mean. To me it always happens like the situation is a class you're taking and this 'crossroads' is the final exam to see what you learned in the class.
For me, I've learned to take emotion out of the equation. do your best to break it down to a basic A/B question. Whatever your answer is (no matter how painful or disturbing it might be in the context of your emotion), it's the right decision.
I've had to hurt more than a few people, or let a few 'situations' go for the greater good of my sanity and my life. And i've never regretted my decisions... no matter how much pain or heartache it's cost me in the SHORT RUN. In the end, i'd made the right decision.
So stop lying to yourself. you know what to do. Now do it.
hurt me once - shame on you, hurt me twice - shame on me
I've reposted it on my myspace, so that some people can read it and learn.
Thank you for this post, it made me think about my current situation and it will hopefully help me to make the right decision.
Thank you very much for being in my life and being there for me when I need you!
Igor
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